Wednesday, 30 July 2014

Forgiveness

Forgiveness


I write this in a time of great thanks. Thanks for this exact moment, Appreciation for the moment just passed and love of the one right after I type the last letter of the word before.

I have been granted so many blessings, so many new beginnings, so much forgiveness for the wrongs I have committed in the past. Maybe you have too.

We all get frustrated with the actions of loved ones. Mostly we get frustrated with ourselves and project that frustration on others; Those who mean the most to us and point out, by their actions, the faults we all fear exist in ourselves.

I told a friend the other day that they were the most judgmental,  "non-judgmental" person I had ever met. Although at the moment accurate, If that wasn't throwing a stone in a house made of the finest crystal...

When frustration with another hits, recall your own mistakes, our own near misses. Maybe it will help love stay as the most important gift of all.

When darkness sets in we always have a chance to see a new sunrise, if we allow ourselves. When a door shuts a porthole is always ajar. There is a gift in every end because, if truly considered, we can see that a new beginning exists.

Anger with ourselves or with others only feeds a darkness that does not deserve that credit. Remember the forgiveness and let the next moment be the most joyful you have ever experienced.

Love like there is no tomorrow. Learn as though it was your first realization. And as someone told me the other day, "realize the gift in the breath you just took."

Thank you Lord for the gift of the now.

WJN

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Tuesday, 29 July 2014

Fishing With Dad

Fishing With Dad


John Zaloom has been my friend for 100 years (figuratively speaking of course) and a little comment he made on a Facebook post made me so happy.

"Anybody who hung out with Will had to fish."

Zaloom was so much smarter than me. Somehow he thought he could throw a football better, but I'll have to let that slide because I wasn't any good at it either. I shall not digress less my momentary lucidity pass...

I am a fisherman. My daddy, who's birthday is today made me one. A damn good one, if I don't say so myself. He also shaped me in so many other ways.

Dad taught me how to finesse a lure and about unique presentation... in life and on the water. There was never another Dave Nelson and there won't ever  be. He and mom laid down a rough outline, taught me how to look a person in the eye, give a firm handshake and then go fishing. AKA.. Roll with it. 


When we fished, and because we did so often, we caught all manner of species of aquatic life. I once caught a triple tail in a foot of water. Another day, we waded into a hundred thousand baby sand eels. I caught momma, in darkness before dawn, as the water shown florescent green around me. We caught 50 blowfish on another traipse through the Bolivar pocket;  Didn't know what they were until one expanded in Bubba's hand. There was always a surprise on the end of the line. 


With an easy smile and sparkling blue eyes dad attracted a wonderful grab bag of friends, just like the fish. He taught us all how to welcome people and opportunity. He was kind to every person he ever met ( except for maybe a few Japs in 1942).  He fished. 

When I wasn't fishing with dad I was dragging people to brickyard pond behind the old Red Carpet Inn, as John pointed out. The only time I ever went inside the hotel was a day dad picked us up from school early to meet Jimmy Carter during his run for the Presidency. However, I spent many waking hours behind the hotel fishing the little pond. Most of the time I was on a rock in the back left corner. That little rock was my best friend's, Wilton Dalfrey, and my favorite spot. We made some big plans on that tiny island.  You see it was a little way out in the water.

I drug people on those trips because you could get to know one another. You could have adventures... see snakes, maybe an alligator!  You might also just catch something. Mainly though, you could be with a friend or two.  I have never thought about that much until the fortunate little post.

Thank you to Tommy Hurlburt, Allen Wynn, Zaloom and Shawn Grady for bringing to the forefront the memories I had stored away, but certainly not forgotten. Thanks to Wilton, wherever he may be, for all the fun days and for not letting me jump in the flooded flowing drainage ditch when it was apt to send me to the proverbial drain. Thank you Daddy for teaching me how to fish.


When you cast a line you never know what you might catch. Every once in awhile you might land a hard head, but in my experience the longer your bait is in the water the more keepers you'll put in the boat. 


Thank you all for biting and creating my "live well".  you have made life so much fun...


Every interaction we have makes an impression on someone. That point couldn't have been more clearly pointed out in such a simple way today. Know that the little things you do and every kind word you say matters. In short, fish.

On what would have been my best friend's 94th birthday I want to toast you all. I'd like to say, live, laugh, love and figuratively as well as literally, put a line in the water... You never know what you might catch.

William Joseph Nelson. 

Monday, 16 June 2014

Being There

Being There

As I drove to the golf course on the Saturday before Memorial day, Willie Nelson's duet with Sheryl Crow "Far Away Places" rang through the speakers. Mom and Dad's kind of music...

I was instantly blessed with the image of Dad standing against the fence in left field watching me play Little League baseball. I was transported to that "not so far away place".

Just as he always was, Dad is here with me. We walked so many miles together on land and in the water. Played so many games together, told so many stories to one another. I'll admit being sorry for the fibs I told him... I did so appreciate him letting me get away with most of them, even though he saw right through me.

Dad created with me. Yes we created games together; in the old Country Squire Station wagon with the multi colored doors ( a gift from a wreck in the past). We fought imaginary World War II battles.. The cars were the Yanks and the trucks the Japanese. I was his copilot and gunner and he was the pilot and commander. Of course, We never lost a battle. The imaginary was magical, but Everything else was the great "good stuff".

We built memories. Unforgettable beauties on all those golf courses, in all those bays, in the mosquito ridden canals, sleeping on  rocks, trecking through marshes, picking our way through woods.

Sometimes we talked a plenty. Most times we were just together. Helpful instructions and words of encouragement the only words spoken, and then only when necessary.

I was able to dream, to conjure oneness with nature and God. I was safe and never had a worry with you. What a gift.

From serving our country to protecting and providing for us, Dad was always there, stedfast. In a strange way the silent presence in left field says it all. No judgement, no expectation and present.

Dad made me know that I could conquer the world. I now know he faced fear, but I never had one while with him.

Father's Day without him? No, he is here.  He is with and a part of every one of his 11 children. I see his smile in every one of us. I hear his laugh when you all laugh; see him dance every time I do. Hear him sing when one of us does. He is so very near like he always was.

Happy Father's Day Dad. With all the love in the Universe.

William Joseph Nelson Sr.

Sunday, 7 July 2013

Omaha Here We Come - United States Senior Open 2013


7-5-2013

Having a brother that is good enough to play in one SR. US Open let alone two is a blessing to a wanna be like me. As the old saying goes; if you can't play, coach. If you can't coach... Caddie!  That's the links version anyway.

Hunter and I head out to Omaha tomorrow for the US Senior Open. Eyes set on 7 incredible days. Yes 7. 2011 taught us a couple of things that make the forecast sunny with a chance of birdies. Here's a few things I remember from Open number one and Hunter's revenge on Ben Crenshaw 49 years later...

1. Evidently TVs are loud so the volume must be kept on low. That said I don't think Hunter will make the mistake of putting me in the room next door to him again.

2.  The rough at these things is as long and sticky as an unshaven Golden retriever that hasn't had a bath in awhile- Hunter and I will spend a bit of time Monday thru Wednesday experimenting with the best way to flop a shot out of that to a concrete green and a pin 15 feet away.,.

3. Advil bottle(s) .. Check. Caddie and player equally damaged bodies

4. When in the players dining room no international stories even if you are bragging on your recently departed marine old man. You never know when Kohki Idoki might be within ear shot. 

5.  A pin -21 on a pin sheet does not make the front of the green 21 yards closer. ( I only did that once -- but I argued with Hunter about it halfway down the hole... Thank God he made par... And oh yes, didn't listen to me) I swear I was in the math club....

Yes experience is everything....  I think I'll sign some autographs this year. Hunter is old hat at it now.  

Looking forward to seeing Omaha Country Club and what lays in store for us. If other Perry Maxwell tracks are any indication we'll be met with undulating greens and tight fairways. Not the original course designer Maxwell renovated the course in 1952.

The Omaha CC renovation was Mr. Maxwell's Swan Song as he died that same year. Maxwell designed Prairie Dunes in Hutchinson Kansas and Southern Hills in Tulsa OK.  He also added significant Maxwell charm to Colonial Country Club, Pine Valley and Merion to name a few...  Pretty good tracks you think?

To say the least, the golf course should be a beauty. The company will be excellent as Hunter's wife Betsy will be there; and I'm on a darn good bag.

Onward to Omaha.  Keep it in the short stuff and below the hole.

Will

Tuesday, 19 March 2013

You Always Have a Play

I caddied for my brother Hunter Nelson in the 1994 US Open Sectional Qualifier at Champions Golf Club in Houston Texas. On the first tee Hunter's playing partner David Lundstrom addressed his ball and promptly duck hooked it into the trees on the left. Normally an excellent ball striker, Lundstrom's  anomaly travelled 100 yards forward and took a hard left turn disappearing into the trees and brush. To quote my brother, "see ya tournament ..."

We all searched for the little white mystery and nearing the end of the 5 minutes allowed, David started the lonely walk back to the tee. At that moment Hunter spoke the magical words. "David, here's one."

With shoulders raised 2 inches higher and a stride that looked nothing like the sullen trudge Lundstrom had departed with back towards number one tee, he    returned and identified his long lost friend. New life coursing through his veins, the journeyman pro chipped his ball out to the middle of the fairway, and fired a 4 iron from 200  yards that finished 15 feet from the cup. Just 7 minutes after near disaster, Lundstrom stepped over the 15 footer and drained it for a par.

Lundstrom never hit another bad shot in 36 holes that day. He also never made a putt outside of 6 feet. In the end David Lundstrom shot 69 - 72 for a 36 hole total of 141 and garnered one of 2 spots in the 1994 US Open at Oakmont.

That first hole reminded me of life in so many ways. We have all hit a "duck hook" on occasion, maybe we have hit multiple. Many times it takes a friend, an unlikely action or an unknown hero to help us out of a trouble spot. God throwing us humans a bone if you will. We are given that chance to "chip out" and hit a recovery shot. It's up to us to hit the shot and make the putt.

We make mistakes, but no matter where that decision puts us we always have an opportunity to recover. As my old golf buddy Jason Black says; " you've always got a shot". It might be behind a tree... But it's a shot nonetheless.

Life is full of mishits and mistakes, but with the help of others and a few lucky bounces we make it through. There are times you don't find your ball and have to walk on back to that tee. As hard as it may seem , there is still a chance to recover. You must re-load and keep on keepin' on.

Try to keep it in the fairway, but if you wind up in a ditch look for a little help from your friends. Sometimes even a good decision or well meant intentions go awry. David Lundstrom had good intentions when he hit that first shot. Pick your head up and try to do the best with where you are as a result. Dwelling on how you got there does you no good as you try to make lemonade out of lemmons.

Here's hoping you find your ball when your looking for it and here's to making par after you do.

Hit it long and straight
Will

Friday, 7 December 2012

Horrors and Heroes

It seems appropriate that I finish the book “In Harm’s Way” today on the 71st anniversary of Pearl Harbor.  The book is the story of the torpedoing of the USS Indianapolis.  The Battle Cruiser was making its way to Leyte after delivering the Atomic Bomb “Little Boy” to the island of Tinian. Ultimately that cargo would lead to the end of the war that Japan forced the United States into on December 7, 1941.
The story of the Indianapolis ; its sinking, the terrible struggle of the 900 or so men who remained alive when the ship disappeared from site only 14 minutes after 2 torpedoes ripped through its hull and the ultimate rescue of just 317 of the initial crew of over 1,100 is one of the most amazing stories I have ever read. It is only one of the thousands of tales of heroism and horror of WWII.  Unfortunately, without horror heroism cannot exist.
In 4 days adrift after the sinking of one of the Flagship Cruisers of the US Navy the devil surely showed his face to the fighting men who were the passengers and crew of the Indianapolis.  From the initial contact of the first torpedo from the Japanese I-58 submarine, to the sighting of the first shark who brought hundreds with him to feed on the wounded sailors and Marines; to the dehydrated and delusional young men stripping off their life preservers to sink to their deaths because they could go on no longer; to psychosis setting in and the survivors attacking one another and finally to exhaustion, shark attacks and mental maladies claiming hundreds more lives even as rescue planes and ships pulled the survivors out of the water, this event embodied all forms of tragedy.
All of us have relatives that fought in World War II.  My dad was a Marine and was awarded Purple Hearts from wounds at Tarawa and Saipan.  Because of my close friendship with my dad I have been lucky enough to spend many hours with men that served in World War II.  Men that fought with friends who died to make sure that our Country remained free.  What an unbelievable group of heroes.  I give thanks and prayers for all of them on the anniversary of a horrific day in their lives and the lives of so many families that lost loved ones on December 7, 1941.
Years ago (on a day that God showed himself to me and the aforementioned Devil was nowhere to be found) I ran into my Dad’s best friend Bob Lee in front of Napoleon’s tomb in Paris.  Three million people and I run into my fishing buddy Bob Lee from Beaumont, Texas… there are no coincidences.  Bob took us to dinner that night and we talked about the invasion of Normandy.  Bob was wounded during the fighting in the countryside after landing at Utah beach.  This trip in 1999 was Mr. Lee’s first trip back since 1945.
That night as I overflowed with  awe and respect for the men of the Greatest Generation Bob stopped me short and told me the story of his 21st birthday. 
“Aw hell William!” his big jovial voice boomed. “We weren’t doing anything different than you were in your 20’s. Drinkin’ and chasing girls.  We just happened to be doing it in France.  Most the time we just walked through the hedges and kept our heads low”.  His big smile and round red face glowed as he continued. “I turned 21 over here.  That night I shot a chicken with my M1; we stole a bottle of calvados from a farm, got drunk and boiled that bird with a bouillon cube in my helmet. Pretty darn good birthday”.  Bob laughed that fantastic deep throated, strong laugh I love so much and that was the end of the conversation.  That’s the way he wanted it.  That’s what he wanted to remember that night.

Well Bob I know you all hold back on us.  We hear way more of the good than the bad, but we appreciate every bit of it.  We appreciate what all of you did in the Pacific and in Europe.  Joe Bob kinsel Sr. navigating men to safety on runs that weren’t made to be run.  Buddy Arnoult keeping men alive in planes that had more wrong than right with them.  Captain McVay, the Commander of the Indianapolis, leading his men while waiting for sure death as no rescue boats were sent to a ship no one missed.  You all fought for our Country and for our future.  We honor you and we thank you.
On this day that lives in infamy.  God Bless all of the veterans of World War II.  God Bless the young men and women who have ever served in our military and those that serve today and God Bless America.
Will

Saturday, 8 September 2012

One of These Thing's Is Not Like the Other.. Or?

I never knew shopping for Mirrolure's and earrings had anything in common until I took Sarah Jane to Claire's.  She proceeded to get down in the catchers crouch and pull package after package of earrings off the rack.  I couldn't help being reminded of scouring the peg board at Gibson's in the old days looking for a 52M28. 

I found other similarities as well.  She stared at some of the small ones just like I stare at snap swivels or small hooks for crappie fishing.  Some of them even looked like bucktails for spoons or little spinner baits.  As a matter of fact I have quite a few new designs in mind. 

Finally just like a trip to Academy it's hard to get out of the store.  Everything seems to be something you need.  And just like Academy you can't get out of there for under $50. I guess the only good news is you don't  lose earrings like you lose fishing lures.  Oh wait..., Damn.

Today my little girl and I just did what she wanted and it was a durn good day.   Cheers to Daddys and daughters.
Love 'Em while you got 'em...

Tuesday, 20 March 2012

West Bay Wonders

Ignition
We asked my son William where his friends were going for Spring Break and the answers were quite astounding.  I don't remember them all, but China was the first thing out of his mouth... I had a trip to China scheduled for us all but I heard that SARS was making a comeback so I cancelled it and we asked my sister Carroll if we could come to the beach.  It wasn't so much that I thought one of us was going to get the virus.  I just get uncomfortable seeing all those short people in surgical masks...

With Mao Tse-Tung set aside, William, SJ and I loaded up and set out for Southeast Texas.  First stop Beaumont  to see Momma and Daddy.  I called at noon to surprise them, but had to call back at 1 because they were still asleep.  Age sure changes things. 

I remember the days of Paw Paw's loud rousting of all within ear shot.  The man did not like people sleeping late.  You could always hear his footsteps before the words.  The progression was: Florsheim's on wood. A loud clear of the throat and then, "Wiiiilllll" or "Sunshine of the Ozarks" or "Come on Now time to Get Up!"  On Tuesday morning it was silence and that made me long for days gone by.

After a short visit with the Matriarch and Patriarch of all that is crazy the kids packed the car on their own for the first time in their lives. Somehow I managed to bitch about the way they did it. I just can't help but look a gift horse in the mouth... When the middle aged man was done rearranging ( which meant unload and put everything back exactly where it was) we were off.

Raindrops on Roses and Whiskers on Catfish
The weather man was "shockingly" wrong so it was beautiful when we arrived in Galveston.  I've suggested to Sarah that if she'd like a job in which she can be wrong 75% of the time and not get fired weather woman is a field to look into.  As a matter of fact the weather was good all week. The beach water warm, the tempature enough for a long sleeve shirt at sunrise and after dark and a breeze that stayed below gail force.

Firing a top water from the kayak Thursday morning I realized, not for the first time, just how fine our little part of the world is.  Cruising down the Intracoastal headed to Kemah, recounting old adventures with Dad to the kids, the wonders continued to reveal themselves. Watching the kids land rat reds and flounder from the dock I was as content as I've been in a long time. 

Deep breaths such as this short intake down in Galveston allow you to quiet your mind.  I don't know about you, but I really need it.  If you stay still long enough you can catch some wonderful moments.  

I watched William grow up in front of my eyes as he unknowingly flashed his blue eyes and bright smile at Kaki Duhner on the boat; Saw Sarah Jane hold onto the anchor rope so as not to fly out while she gracefully held court with the older kids.  Sitting on the dock in the dark SJ joined me in her PJs just to get in one last cast. All as cool as it gets for a dad. I bet many of you had the same kind of moments. If not last week, not long ago.  Access that hard drive in your brain and let the memories flow.  They are filed away not far from the surface and they work like a battery charger for a soul that might need the extra bars...

I made it to the deck just before sunrise everyday.  It was Mike Petitt that told me that going on the chicken schedule was a pretty good deal.  Crowing  with the sunrise and in the rack not long after the sun goes down. I think he's on to something.  I might just have to show up at Petitt's place on East Bay just to make sure it works the same over there. Research you know... Big trout research.

Curiosity and Imagination

The outdoors is like a spark for the imagination and creativity.  Unfortunately for us old folks our fuse is a little short.  Kids however...
I watched William rig a hand line in lieu of a rod and reel  just as I had done many years before. I recalled loading a box with croaker on hand lines tied to every ice box handle, tackle box, oar mooring and anchor in our old row boat the Stella.  William had the whole crew of kiddos at his heels as he caught tiny minnows, iridescent jelly fish and prehistoric looking sea worms ( not my favorite thing to know is in the water while I'm wade fishing) in a net.  He kept the minnows, creatures and even a croaker alive in the bait box. Changing batteries in the aerator when the croaker looked sluggish. When the croaker survived over night the young researcher gave him a life reprieve for its outstanding fortitude. He ceremoniously released the little fellow with well wishes of "good luck".

The questions that my son asked me were incredible and I had about as much chance of answering them correctly as I would have answering a calculus problem.  In his eyes I could see his brain working, his hypothesis forming and I bet you he sends me the answers to those questions.  It was so cool to see that imagination, that curiosity and the thirst for knowledge. 

Someone told me if you ask God to speak you will be amazed at what He says in return.  The key for all of us is to listen with our eyes, our ears and our hearts.  I didn't know when I loaded up the car and headed home that I was asking God to speak, but as the clutter in my over active mind cleared I certainly heard His answers. Yes I'm sure China was amazing, but wonder is all around us. 

A little piece of unsolicited advice; take time to listen with all your senses today.  You never know what you might hear.

Thanks to Carroll and Jeff Patrizi for their hospitality.

Breathe... and Hook 'Em
Will

Tuesday, 14 February 2012

The Perfect Day

There isn't anything better than getting to spend time with your dad.  It's a huge added bonus if that time is spent fishing.  I was lucky enough to spend most of my childhood doing just that. Whether it was walking the North Jetty, wading the Bolivar pocket, hiding from the wind behind the house on the Intracoastal or trying to catch a striped bass at the dam at Sam Rayburn, Dad and I were always sharing an adventure. In the words of the late Bob Stevenson Sr. "Havin' fun outdoors!"

Mid way through the summer when I was eleven, dad decided we were going to spend the night on the north jetty. That Friday night we added lawn chairs to the provisions that were loaded into the Stella.  The Stella was our 10 foot long John boat that  we transported to and from the beach in the back of Dad's Country Squire station wagon every weekend.

Saturday morning the wind was low, non-existent really, the day hot and the water clearing with every minute. My anticipation of the rewards the next two days would bring was reaching a boiling point as high as the heat that July weekend promised.  Dad, my brother John (16 at the time) and his friend Mike Sabatelli executed our standard Saturday routine. We waded the Bolivar pocket chunking Mirrolures, Johnson Sprites, plastic shrimp tails and split tail beatles time and time again.  The Stella was tied to Dad's waist as we waded toward the jetty. 

The Stella which ultimately served as a floating wheel barrow, carrying our ice chest, tackle boxes, extra rods, etc... was originally  called into duty as a transport for me. As the last of eleven kids and five and a half years younger than the 10th, I wasn't tall enough to wade through all the guts in the pocket. From the time I was 5 there was also no way I was going to be left behind. That being the case dad (aka. Paw Paw) had to make accommodations. Now the Stella also had added benefits... The primary being it's ability to serve as a ferry from inside the boat cut on the north jetty to outside or "past the cut".

On the days when the wade across the flat didn't produce the number or size of fish we were looking for, we would load up in the 10 foot aluminum and head out past the cut. The power behind the stella changed over the years.  At first dad had oars to row us where we intended to go; next a Minkota trolling motor did the job and in the later years a 5 horse Mercury turned the Stella into a virtual speed boat (compared to rowing that is...).

On this summer day in 1980 the 16 year olds in our party headed back to Beaumont after a slower than expected day of fishing that resulted in 8 trout and a saddle back flounder.  Dad and I dropped them off at the beach, loaded the collapsible lawn chairs in the Stella and headed for our granite campground for the night.

Dad and I passed the cut and the first marker on the outside mile and half of the north jetty and picked a nice flat rock on which to land the boat.  When the tide was high enough you could run the boat up a little before the man in front jumped out  and started pulling. On this summer day the tide was low and the waves almost non- existent on the gulf side so we nudge our way onto the flatest rock we could find and unloaded our heavier than usual provisions before dad and I hauled the stella up 4 or 5 rocks to safety on the jetty.

The afternoon was still young so we still had plenty of daylight to fish and we went to work doing just that.  The tide was low, and the fishing slow as a result.  The water was clear and green,  but  the non-existent current had most of the fish except the mullet in-active for the day.  That being the case, the eleven year old me got bored and tied on the biggest Silver Johnson Sprite I could, primarily picking the spoon for the size of the treble hook in the back.

I found a semi- flat rock near the waters edge on the channel side of the jetty and proceeded to cast my spoon to a stationary school of mullet that swam aimlessly by the side of the huge rocks.  My retrieve consisted of letting the spoon drop under the big eyed bait fish and yanking it back through in hopes of foul hooking one.  If you snagged a big one they fought hard and on a slow day you could cut them up for bait. No telling what you might catch on cut bait in the Gulf of Mexico. 

As my attempts to land a sharp point deep enough into the side of the hard scaled flat heads failed time and again, I started to let the Sprite flutter just a bit farther beneath the surface with each cast. What happened next is etched into my mind as clear as the brightness of the brightest blue sky you have ever seen.  As the spoon fell in the clear water 20 feet from me, I watched each sparkle of sunlight flash off its sides as it oscillated against the resistance of the water.  From a crevice unseen in the submerged rocks below a 3 pound trout shot out  vertically as if to jump, unhinged its jaws and enveloped the lure.  Luckily, due to the trance that I was in, I reacted slowly enough with the hook set so as not to yank the treble hook out of the big girls mouth. The yelling then ensued...

The first shouting came from me trying to garner Paw Paw's attention.  Trying to get Dad's attention from 3 feet away while he was watching TV was hard enough, so try from 30 rocks away on the North jetty!! With lungs that learned loud early... and a practiced tone of urgency that either meant: I am "REALLY" hurt or "I have a big fish on" I was finally able to get him to see the bend in my rod.  With agility I wish I could witness again, the old marine grabbed the net and bounded over and down to me. It was then that the sacred fish chant began.

Every one of you that has caught a fish of any size has experienced some form of this " fish dance".  The person or people with you begin with the yelling of instructions. Well I learned the fish chant from Daddy and on this day and during the battle for this unexpected fish it sounded like this:

"Come on now... Keep your line tight. Don't horse him!! Get him OUT OF THE ROCKS!!!! QUIT reeling... Lead him to me. Head into the net now, head into the net".... Suddenly the speck realized she was  almost done for and turned to run for the hills and it was my turn. "Daddy DON'T hit him in the tail!" Water splashed us both, the trout's last little burst of drag run ended and I turned her back towards the net.  The mantra from Paw Paw continued; " Head into the net now, head into the net" and finally he hoisted the prize out of the water.  The fish chant ended as it always does, with big smiles and a special kind of laughter that is not often found and hard to beat...

After that fish renewed our collective interest in the possibilities of trout to come, dad and I cast our lines toward the anchored ships in the Galveston ship Channel vigorously for the next 2 hours.  As I stared at the horizon, I noticed a wall of water headed our way.  Not knowing what to think I asked dad, " Daddy is that a tidal wave?". He stared out for a few seconds and said, "Well - don't know, but let's put our life jackets on and go hold onto the boat." I did as I was told and dad grabbed me with one hand and the front hold on the Stella with his other.

Thirty seconds after we had secured ourselves, a uniform wave big enough to crash completely over the North Jetty at extremely low tide knocked us and the Stella 3 feet toward the gulf side of the rocks and then all was still.  In our life jackets, with firm grips still on our little beached vessel, Dad and did what we had done many times before and have done many times since; we looked at each other with big eyes and laughed out loud.  

The rest of that night the tide rose. A yacht showed up just prior to dark and anchored on the gulf side not far from us.  Dad and I ate cold fried chicken sitting in the lawn chairs and contemplated what sort of activity those on board were involved in. A little bass boat made multiple runs from the yacht to the channel side and back all night.  Our imaginations turned the yacht into a drug boat. Those on board playing loud music and sending their flunky out on his runs were made into modern day pirates.  We talked of rewards and dangers and all kinds of good eleven year old stuff. 

The sky was completely clear and every star was visible for miles.  The wind didn't even whisper and the only sound was that of the wave action being broken by the jetty. 

We didn't sleep much as the tide rose extremely high the next AM.  The thoughts of another unexplainable wave at high tide as opposed to low was evidently cause enough for concern for even the old marine. We fished and we talked and we both dreamed with nothing in our heads. What a night.

When the sun rose the water was as clear as it gets in that part of the Gulf.  More blue than green, which just doesn't happen often.  The water teamed with Spanish mackerel and we landed quite a few.  We watched as schools of Stingray glided gracefully by.  In search of trout we launched the Stella and headed back inland. 

The extreme clarity of the water proved tough for trout that day as did the fact that the tide was so high early and would be moving slowly out the rest of the day. We managed a couple trout and in the afternoon made our way just inside the first bend of the jetty and picked up a couple more flounder.  As the light started to get soft we made our way back across the Mexican flats and chunked our last few casts as we waded into shore.

The boat was loaded into the back of the white and brown Country Squire.  Dad affixed the red rag to the front end of the Stella that served as our "caution light" to those cars and trucks that might not expect a boat to be sticking out of the back of a station wagon:); and we headed to Beaumont as the sun disappeared.

I have been lucky enough to catch sailfish on the "Adelante", to chase smallmouth bass in Greenbay;  blessed enough to catch dolphin and tuna in Cabo, fortunate enough to hook a Muske in Wisconsin. I have caught trout all night under the lights at rollover pass and loaded the boat with salmon and rainbow trout on Lake Michigan. I've been granted a few Kingfish and Wahoo in North Carolina.  I've fished lakes and ponds and caught big bass.  I have a 9 and 3 quarters pound speckled trout on my wall....

I'd give it all back for one more weekend like that with my Daddy. I hope the memories I am building, have built and continue to build with my kids are as special and as strong when they are my age.  Thank God for that old Marine.

Will

Saturday, 22 October 2011

#6 at Pebble Beach- Lemmons

10/21/2011

#6 at Pebble Beach- Lemmons

I was lucky enough to be invited to Pebble beach to play in the Taylor Made Pro-Am  tournament in February this year.  What a magical place. I was told to prepare for all types of weather;  cold, rainy, foggy, and windy; basically anything but blue skies, no wind and perfect.  Well perfect was the kind of weather we had for the entire trip. The only problem was I was not perfect.  My heart hurt, my brain had fog in it and the wind was blowing at hurricane force and in tornado shapes around my little village upstairs…
My partner was a pro from Houston Texas, who will remain nameless in order to protect the innocent.  I will tell you that he is a great player and great man who will be a good friend for the rest of my life. My padsy ( golf speak for partner) had the unfortunate opportunity to live through my little internal life storm and my external golf meltdown.
Number 6 at Pebble Beach is a great short Par 5 in the PGA event they may even play it as a par 4.  From the back tees its right at 500 yards.  The terrain slopes from left to right and on your right lies the Pacific Ocean in all its glory.  The pro tees are situated far enough back that you can hit a cut down the left side and likely have no chance of mother ocean swallowing your Titleist.  The amateur tees however were way forward begging the decision of three wood for safety or driver and possible disaster.
It was the second round of the tournament and I had finally played 5 holes of decent golf. I was shaking with every swing because I knew my next disaster was just under the thin veil of confidence I had forced myself to muster that morning. My Pads was safe in the fairway and I asked him what he thought,  3 wood or driver.  Ken looked at me and said with a smile, “ I think if you’re gonna be a pussy you should have stayed home”. Translation- Driver…
Well I proceeded to hit the worst 100 yard long 300 yard high pop up driver you have ever seen.  Here I am at Pebble Beach, sun shining sea lions barking and worst of all people watching and I just showed my be-hind.  Somehow however, I found a cure… laughter.  I walked straight up to our score keeper and joked; “I just wanted you to see a different way to make birdie”.
I found my ball on the side of a hill way left in terrible rough.  Looked in front of me and realized I had nowhere to hit the ball. The ocean was still short right, the green was 400 yards away and nothing but a huge uphill slope and thick rough lay ahead in my only possible landing place.  So I made the decision to hit the ball as hard as I could right at that nasty uphill lie in the rough.  Good graces shown upon me and somehow my 3 wood made solid contact and the ball jumped out of the hay and landed in the next set of hay just 145 yards from the pin.
Now all I had left was 145 yards out of a buried up-hill lie to a small green that I could not see. Lemmons… I swung hard and with the slope of the hill and sent an 8 iron on its way.  I trudged forward with hope and when I arrived at the green, found my ball 6 inches from the pin.  My padsy smiled and said,” I knew you were gonna make birdie after that drive…”
It is funny how everything about that hole patterned my life of late.  I had no idea how much until I woke up this morning.  The turmoil in my head before that golf tournament left me with no confidence going in. No confidence on the golf course and no confidence in life.  The only real difference in the golf tournament was my partner.
I was in a bad place in February of 2011 and really until I got to late August 2011 (which I realized this morning is metaphorical for 6 tee at Pebble Beach that day).  I didn’t love myself, in my everyday life I was surrounded by negative,  hurtful, evil people and I had very little hope of hitting a good tee ball in life.  There were good people near and good people who cared, but I wasn’t letting them be my caddie. That day on 6 tee at Pebble Beach something woke up in me on the golf course.  In late August something woke up in me in my life.
Now my golf game wasn’t cured.  A lack of talent doesn’t go away after one lucky birdie…, so my pards had to struggle through the rest of the tourney with me.  There were good holes and bad.  Birdies, bogies  and… others, but we made it through with love, laughter and our eyes towards a better day. In the end the rest of that tournament was harder on my partner than me.  I set my burdens aside if only for the rest of our time together and somehow he was able to make it through. Ironically enough my partners in life are going to have the same challenges and so will yours.
Who do you surround yourself with?  Who are the good influences?  Who loves life?  Who loves others? Who of them love themselves?  Ask these questions from your core about your partners- your caddies – about their core. 
Superficial is one thing…
Remember that all of us are human so every member of your life team will have their own problems.  Their own meltdowns, their own needs for a caddy, but are they good at the core? Are they a positive life force?  Are you and they both there to better one another and each other? Do they make you better or do they make you want to be better.
You might ask these questions about situations, about jobs about decisions, just insert “ this” instead of “they”…
We have all made so many mistakes and drawn so many bad lies in life.  I know I have acted out of fear and without confidence and the results of those actions led to a bunch of double bogeys; I am way over par. We have all at a time attracted unhappy partners and unhappy caddies.  In August I found light. I found a good caddy, I found a good partner, I found a good team.  Because of that change I have also found myself. Thank all of you who are a part of that.
Shake that life tree.  Laugh, Live, Love! And do it with those who will experience it with you and do it with the same fervor and commitment.  Let the devil have the people that suck…
Laugh in the face of your fears.  As the saying goes, “that which doesn’t kill us makes us stronger”
Peace Out
Will